What should I be Doing (piecing 6)

[Coconut]

Is her doing what I ask and being responsive to my actions enough?

More and more I think about leaving, the more I think about it, the more I realize she's had no consequence for her betrayal. I wanted her back so bad when I realized I was losing her that as soon as she was willing I grabbed her and brought her back into the M. I want you to have N.c with OM I told her, I don't want to leave academy she said, ok I agreed, but minimize contact.

No one except my cousin knows what has happened from me (and she got upset I told him), but she's told 4 friends and didn't tell me until I asked if she had.

She told S we were having issues, I never said anything.

The only fall out she's had is me posting it on firefighter group chat, but then I wrote an apology letter to her captain, for posting private issues at his station.

I'm not a girly man, but I definitely haven't been a man in this situation. I wanted her back so badly I jumped at the opportunity and took the lead, big mistake, cause now I want to run.

I think I'm gonna bring it up in MC tomorrow, my position is basically going to be I'm leaving at the end of July, I'll help with mortgage as long as house goes on market, if she refuses she can figure out how to pay (she can't afford it, but doesn't want to sell).

I'll give her until then to do everything possible to convince me she wants me, if she doesn't then I'm gone. I'm not interested in postponing my suffering, she can keep her fire fighting, and see other people if she wishes, but if she wants to be with me, she needs to put in some work.