Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 2

[PsySara]

Hi Painter!
I lurk in your thread all the time. I feel like a famous person has stopped by, lol!

Rose888,
You're welcome to stop by and comment anytime. I am not as together as I seem. Every day is still a battle with detaching.

SH,
I am trying not to go down bitter roads but when I think about how much I am willing to do to save my marriage while my WH wallows in his immaturity/MLC?whatever, I get enraged. I am practicing a LOT of DBing just to keep my dignity. Thank you for the positive words, they help a waning sailor.

JKSD,
TRip went off without a trip so your well wishes came in handy.

sr9ed7,
My strength comes and goes. There are many a night that I am awake for hours and hours with heartbreak and anger over the cards I have been dealt in this marriage.

So the kids were perfectly behaved for the plane ride and afterward. When I arrived I was met at the airport by my cousin and his two friends. My mother's husband also showed up and helped me unpack and sort the entire house. I was overwhelmed with the immense kindness and love I felt. I have been going solo for so long I was expecting more of the same. But now my entire house is unpacked and sorted in 24 hours!!! It's a miracle.

Tomorrow the two older kids start summer camp and I will be interviewing the nanny on Tuesday. My WH will be arriving tomorrow as well. HE decided to drive instead of fly which means he will lose a day with the kids. I don't get him at all. He says he loves his children more than anything in the world but then would rather drive "for fun" and lose limited time with them. He will be here for a week and then gone for 3 weeks again.