Ciluzen what an emotional time for you. Your H is lucky to still have your support, but you must make sure you are being supported too.
I know getting over friendships is easier said than done, I'm struggling with similar issues at the moment. I think we'll get there sweetie, I really do.
Take care (((ciluzen)))
"There's nothing sadder than a conman conning himself"
“There is freedom waiting for you, On the breezes of the sky, And you ask "What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, What if you fly?”