Interesting morning. WW called to say she was headed to Costco to get my Father's Day present, and to Target to get a couple things. She talked to me for more than 20 minutes, that's more than we've spoken at one time since she left. Nothing heavy, just stuff about S, what's going on at her job and the like. She said thank you for "being normal" and talking to me (all I did was validate of course). I said sure (trying to be the lighthouse). Weird part: She said I don't feel like I have any friends, don't really have anyone to talk to.
When she arrived we were pleasant, and got things ready for S. She's taking him to the lake today, and bought two rash guards w/a giftcard she got at preschool. One for me and one for her, because the one we've been sharing barely fits him. She asked if I like the present, and I said yes I do thank you. In fact, I love it and it causes me to well up. A mouse pad with a great picture of S and I that I took a few weeks ago that'll be great for work, and a coffee mug with S and I from a picture she took a couple years ago.
Such a roller coaster. This is like the woman I married. Sweet, thoughtful, talkative, fun with a little pottymouth thrown in. I was pleasant but not overly excited or anything, closer to Sandi's recommendation of "no emotion" actually. I hated seeing S go, but didn't let on about anything. I've got errands to run and things to take care of at home today, tomorrow I'm going to see my buddy at O'Charleys and I may go do something Tuesday.
No contact. GAL. Time for me. I slipped up, but I'm back to doing what I need to. No expectations. Today, not a week, 6 weeks, 6 mos from now. Today. Don't believe her words, don't get trapped in an R talk, don't read into things. Just go with the flow and take one day at a time. *exhales deeply*
Me: 35 W: 32 S: 4 T: 6 M: 4 Physical Separation official: 5/21 Currently: DR/DBing, Focusing on me and son
Cheating on a good person is like throwing away a diamond and picking up a rock.
