Thank you Jim... I'm always busy! But I havent had much of any GAL activities involving socializing, which always makes me feel better.
Absolutely right Painter. In addition to everything you said, in a way I am also mourning my identity. I loved being a wife. I never wanted to be single again. I like the comfort, and trust and sharing of lives and goals and ambitions that come with being a part of a family unit...granted that wasn't really in existence but I always thought they would be, you know? I still liked that role.
It's funny, I am forced into a role that some people willingly take or secretly desire and I have no wish for it. I have freedom. I have every other weekend to myself. I will eventually get to flirt and date and have another chance at passion and hot, new, sex. The universe is funny that way, because I recognize that stuff as temporary and very fleeting and I desired committment/family more then anything. Who knows. Maybe that feeling will change for me.
It kind of has to because I don't have much of a choice.
