Chapter 2, She moved out - I win! I think

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Well after a couple on instances of her talking about coming home - she is now telling me I was reading more into it than she was saying.

Developments: She is moving from her "crash" pad to a basement apt. She is going to visit the boys here. At first I was against it, then when I thought she was lonely I was for it. Now, I don't know how I feel. We eat meals together etc. I guess she is detached. I find sharing meals, etc quite personal.

I do know my pursuing - that was a response to her saying she'll come home was not received - not a surprise.

She has booked a six month lease. I'll need to come up with a bit of a plan I think. Need to keep on my GAL path, I keep looking for the elusive detachment.

I'm not looking forward to the summer:

D20 is moving out next week - very secretive about it???
S15 is away for most of the summer
S10 is home away for two weeks.

I was supposed to start a basement reno. Not sure just now. Feeling low, not keen to start a major project and then have to sell, etc.

It's a beautiful day in T.O. I was out on my motorcycle twice, D20 and I had a nice dinner out, now heading to meet a friend for drinks.

Still feeling low. I'll need to quit my addiction to her and find a way to keep moving ahead for me.

I look, feel, act very different from where I was months ago - still very empty. Considering I have so much going on, it's amazing how obsessed I am with her.