Hi Sotto. It's all sounding very positive and moving forwardish
Re XH, I think if you didn't wonder sometimes then it's wouldn't be normal
You can't have someone in your life for that period and just turn off feelings , you might add feelings , sadness , disappointment even hate but not just turn off those feelings
You know I admire how you deal with everything and I think Nice Guy might be a pleasant distraction if you choose.
Your posts are always upbeat but maybe adding a hint of romance might be good ?
Just my humble opinion and as we all know on here , I'm not the sharpest knife I the draw