H does continue to warm. It was nice last night. We woke up at 2 and ML and he held me so close all night, for the third night in a row. He was nice to me all night. (What I mean is I could feel warmth coming from him rather than just coldness and walls.) He actually touched me again and asked me if I had a "good time." First time he seemed to care. And that's not just my assumption. He has actually told me (at beginning of DB) that he just doesn't care if I had a "good time" during ML. He put his hands behind his head and just let me do what I wanted to to him because he said he just couldn't bring himself to care. He's warming all right.
H has told me that the nice things he is doing are conscious. In other words, he is trying to do nice things for me. I was hoping they were unconscious, but I'll take them either way. Michele says that in order to feel loving, you must do loving things. I guess it doesn't matter if they are conscious or unconscious as long as they are done.
Baby steps. That's all I can hope for is baby steps. If I look for anything other, I will get disappointed.
Still don't know what happened to my mood over the weekend. Wish I could figure it out so it wouldn't happen again.
