I find that it's more like a combination of the teacups and the rollercoaster. Spinning, moving in unexpected directions with sudden shifts and deep dips. And then some calm seconds before your stomach drops again.

You're mourning not just H, but also your M, the future together as parents, getting old together, your dreams of a house, etc. Lots to process.

M 16 yrs, WH62, P54
3 adult blended kids
EA 11/13, BD1 6/14
PA fall 14, BD2 2/15
Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15
Separated 4/16
WH moved OW in 5/16
Divorced 6/15/17