Some days are better than others

[EDF]

Yea, she's definitely great at making her ridiculous statements sound almost reasonable. If it weren't for the aggregate resources of DB and the threads/vets her and being able to read so many other people's war stories I would have gotten seriously derailed many times over already.

Today has been weird... not rollercoaster emotional, but still a lot of very different emotions flitting around. On the one hand I find myself feeling a little bit of hope that I am seeing pursuing behaviors from her, and she seems to be recognizing more just what she stands to lose. But also annoyance that she doesn't see/care how ridiculous her statements are, and some anger that it is supposedly such a difficult decision for her to choose between me and her overweight, alcoholic, OM.

I can definitely see how even if she came back to me tomorrow doing everything right, the actual piecing/healing process will take a long time and working through my own emotions would continue to be a challenge.

One day at a time...