14 days of sheer hell - to get to heaven

[DDJ]

Thank you darknes. This D is going to change something though - I am telling God that I am untying what He bound together, I do it with His blessing, sort of a rights of passage. Besides that, it's just a relationship status, because that is what society has made it. The same thing our WWs felt about their M.

I do believe that the night that she first cheated (to my best knowledge) was the end of my M. I really feel in my soul that adultery ends a M. Right there in the act.

But thats the thing, my feelings in my heart are to hang on, stick together as a family unit, rebuild those picket fences. My soul tells me that I deserve a woman that won't do this to me or her son (possibly again). I have to fight my heart and follow my soul.

I also believe that the idea of trying to get your WW to become romantically attracted to you again, is fighting against the forces of nature. She wants to go, so let her go. Deal. Heal.

As for attempting to regain respect - imagine the respect I will command when i sign that D papers. She will never ever in her life doubt that i am a man of my word. I will take the hard decisions. I will not accept adultery. I can hold my head up high. That's a real man. That's what being "faithful" is all about.

There is only one thing that I will tell my son when he asks... I will say "Love with your heart and soul, do the right thing even though it hurts and if she still cheats - you run son, you run and save yourself"