You made me laugh also. Thanks. Needed that. Trying to decide whether to go home to be with H and workout there or go to gym and make him wonder. I'm a crazy lady, I needed a laugh. Think I'll go home.
I lurk and read but always love following your advice on other people's threads. I have no real contribution to make! How about that! Just wanted to tell you hello and that I value your presence here on the DB!
Maya, that's so sweet of you (I assume you were talking to Dazed as he is the guy with all the answers and posts and makes us all laugh.) You do have something to contribute, it's called caring. It's just as important as advice to most of us, so don't discount it. We need support probably more than anything during the painful time in our lives.
Dazed, you made me laugh so hard. How'd you know that's why I do my squats with my back to the gym and face towards the mirrors?
Anyway, I am waiting for hubby to finish up his karate class. I can hear them all in our basement shouting so I know he must be giving them a good lesson. LOL
Wanted to journal before I forgot the PMA I got tonight. Called H to ask if he wanted to skip our usual thurs night out and he was amenable. He was busy at work, so I ended the call and went out to get the prescribed pizza, beer, ice cream and movies.
A bit later, he called to ask if I had been angry with him because I didn't stay on the phone. I told him no, I just wanted to be considerate as you sounded busy. If I was upset, I would have told you.
We went on to talk for 25-30 mins while I ran my errands. He mentioned that he has been checking ebay for a better paintball gun for me. I told him that was really sweet and I appreciated his thoughfulness. He said "it helps me too. If you have a good gun, you will want to play more and that means more paintball for me." Well, what happened to "separate lives?" YAY! I'm included. Anyway, I told him that it wasn't true as he could play without me. It's not like we are joined at the hip. He seemed to really like this idea. (I know that H is the type to want to know he has his freedom but will never use it. In other words, he wants to see the cage door open, and as long as it is, he will stick around happily)
So, then we got on the subject of our pending night of excess. I told him that I have been losing weight, and he is concerned because he has gained. I told him that I am following the 80-20 plan and it works for me. (You watch what you eat 80% of the time, and the other 20% just don't go crazy) He liked this idea, and I then said "we just need more exercise."
He said "I know, I can't wait for this rain to stop so WE can go ride our bikes after work." YAY! WE!!! I love the sound of that! I mentioned that I can bring our bikes to my work (as I am riding at lunch) and then meet him after work. H said that he doesn't always know when he is getting out of work. I said I could bring a book. He said he didn't want to intrude on my day when I have things I want to do. I knew it sounded needy for me to be waiting around, so I quickly came up with the plan to bring the bikes to the reservoir near his work and start riding. IF he gets out of work on time, he can meet me and join me. IF not, I still get to do what I wanted to do. He **really** liked this idea. I am so excited, he is not only making future plans with me now, he is actually looking forward to the time we spend together. I am so up on my PMA!
Patience...
Just had to say that for the inevitable down that will be coming. Next time, I don't want my PMA to go back down.
hi rotz - great chat with H, i wish mine was as open. sigh.
like may, i have been following your progress, and just wanted to let you know how incredibly helpful and inspiring your rottzalyzations have been the light relief and bantering is such an escape from our collective doldrums.
Renew, does that prove I am not a complete idiot when it comes to men.
Well, nice morning. Cuddles all night and all morning. Good night last night watching a movie. We woke up a bit late, but I got his breakfast ready in time for him to eat it, so that's a plus. He was sing-song happy again and gave me a nice, warm, long hug before leaving.
Acting as if really does work.
Now, he was depressed for days. I began to act as if he would be in a good mood when I saw him, and I immediately saw a change in his reaction to me. (Caution: he was not clinically depressed. This man has never felt depression a day in his life prior to this mess. I'm not saying this will work for a clinically depressed person. But it wouldn't hurt, I think.)
Anyway, I will continue with this tact throughout the weekend and wait and see. It certainly seems to bring him closer to me when he thinks I am happy to see him and be with him.
Quote: (I know that H is the type to want to know he has his freedom but will never use it. In other words, he wants to see the cage door open, and as long as it is, he will stick around happily)
Why do I keep forgetting this in my own sitch????
thanks for the reminder...
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
Needed that. Trying to decide whether to go home to be with H and workout there or go to gym and make him wonder. I'm a crazy lady, I needed a laugh. Think I'll go home. 
Why not enjoy both!! 
the light relief and bantering is such an escape from our collective doldrums.