She does live in the house, still in the second bedroom and still untidy as hell.
She has shown some emotion, but i have hardened my heart to the point that we are literally living like neighbours. There has been literally no physical contact, besides holding hands at pray time with my son for about a month. I even created a barrier to her Temp checking - i told her that if she continues then i will throw her out when the house is in my name - she promptly stopped. That helped take me off her rollercoaster a bit.
As for saving the marriage, well, not a chance because i have made up my mind. She could walk through coals, throw herself into a burning volcano. Nothing will change my mind. She came up with a silly story yesterday about a guy at the bank who's trying to save his M even though he's aware of an affair... she says " and i'm not even having an affair, why can't you try and make things work too".
God has saved me and I have saved myself. That is all that matters to me. I'm putting the old DDJ in the past, along with all of his sins and moving forward as the new DDJ.
I am not a broken man. I am a healed man. I only cry for the breakdown of the family unit.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
