I've been through some incredibly awful things in my life...this has to count as one of the worst. The initial intensity of it, and the long haul nature of it...horrendous.
Well, I've been invited to a big industry event.
Clearly H and his new girlfriend will have been invited too, as we all work in the same industry (I do a different job from them, I only work part time, and my job is nowhere near as high profile as theirs).
I don't know if he/they're expecting me to have been invited as well. Maybe he/they think I won't have been invited?
Anyway, it's on Tuesday.
Do I go?
The reasons for yes: I've been invited I have as much right to be there as anyone else I like socialising I'll know a lot of the people there I can use the evening for some gentle, easy going networking I love getting dressed up and going out I know I can conduct myself with grace and dignity in a stressful situation The whole industry can see how well I'm doing
The reasons for no: He will most likely be there He might be there with GF It will be the first time I will have seen him since early October I don't know how he will react to seeing me there I reckon people will be watching the both of us to see how we are with each other I will most likely find it quite stressful I feel scared
