wow, you are a busy lady indeed!!! I hope you didn't get any water on your computer he he Well, you are kinda in a situtation like me, we love our h's but that physical/emotional part is not there yet. I loved my ex too, but are we wasting our time-this question always goes through my head. You have a wonderful friendship with your h and I can see how he does love you, maybe he will come around in his own time--how long have you been dbing? I wouldn't analyze everything physical thing such as hugging, open eyes, closed eyes, hand holding-how can you concentrate!!! You are driving yourself nuts things about all that stuff. You should just take things as there are, and they are good now, but be patient and it will get better with time--his time. Work on yourself and enjoy what you have now and things should slowly start turning your way.