Phase 2

[Pax_luv]

Thanks for the reply and insight Sotto! Im going to glaze over your questions for a moment, because I just want to put something out there....

After h and I had our ugly encounter. I asked him if he wouldn't mind having a sit down with me this week in an effort to get on the same page (or close to the same book) in terms of the D. He said ok..... And then the flood gates opened. I stood there listening to him for an hour talk about how we never should have gotten married. How It was a mistake. How I didn't understand him. How I was miserable and there was nothing he could do to help me. How I was the one who let the marriage die.... And on and on and on. He did say that he hasn't been happy since the separation. He said he tried everything humanly possible to make the m work. I stood there and listened the best that I could. Proud of myself for not breaking down. I did let him know that I own my part of the M breaking down, but wanted more than anything to make it work. I let him know that I knew I could only work on myself during the separation and continue to do everything I can to understand my faults, make improvements, etc. He told me that it didn't work. (Meaning me doing those things to make myself better didn't work). Ouch.

At the end of the convo, we kind of agreed that he would start the d process and that was that.

Then today, I get a text from him apologizing for being insensitive about the divorce process and that he understood this must be tough for me. He came to this realization about reading up on the d process. He suggested we sit and talk things out soon. I thanked him for the consideration and agreed to the discussion.

So, that's where I'm at now. I pulled out DR, but am trying to find reasons not to read it. I've been carrying it from room to room, but just don't know that i have the energy. I even chose polishing my silver jewelry over it.

I'm just not sure what to do. I really don't know. Surprisingly, I haven't been down in the dumps. It just is what it is, ya know?

Any advice? Feedback?