Now tell me why you insist in continuing to hold on to the false pride of being "crippled." How is that serving you and your children?!
How this serves my children is that they will have at least one parent that models the beliefs and values that D is not an option. They will ultimately choose their own road, and their mom and the rest of our culture can send contrary messages. But I have one vote to case, one opportunity to express my influence, and I will vote how I believe. If my kids stick out a marriage that they were near walking from had I been less passionate, if my experience can save them from the profound loss I've incurred, then I will be delighted. If it doesn't, at least I won't have blood on my hands as I will know I did what was in my power.
Zues, my kids know I didn't want my D. They know I would have done anything to avoid it. But they also know that their mom has made the best of a bad situation, held herself with grace and dignity, reinvented herself, and (hopefully someday) found love again. I can't imagine any of that happening while carrying around the giant burden you are carrying around.
What if, despite your best efforts, your children's spouses leave them. It happens, you know. And they have no role model for what to do next. They have a lonely, bitter dad role model instead. Food for thought?
