Journaling:

We haven't had an R talk. Our last one was the night of our second (and last) MC session.

On the plus side:
* we're getting along
* our sex life is the best it's ever been
* I see indications H is changing some things as a result of things we've discussed
* I'm continuing to make the changes that came out of my IC sessions
* both of us are working at healthy detachment

On the negative side:
* I have no idea if H is actually feeling more attached, or if he is acting as if

I have to work really hard some days to refrain from initiating R talk, but I don't see how asking "Do you love me now?" will help anything.

At times I get panicky that he will announce suddenly that he tried, but it's not working, and he's out of here. Other times I worry that he is staying out of duty but really wishes he had left.

I'm also dealing with some uncomfortable feelings about H starting to GAL with the kids in the afternoons while I'm working. My inappropriately attached self worries that it's a precursor to him leaving. I don't want to be that person! Him doing things with the kids during summer vacation should be a good thing!

So, mostly good, as long as I can keep from freaking out over the stories I tell myself.


Me: 44
H: 44
Kids: 20, 16, 16, and 10
Together/Married: 22 years
H announced he was emotionally detached and considering D: 4/4/16
H announced he is going to try to stay and reconnect: 5/1/16