Have had a couple of downish days the last day or 2. More to do with my own thoughts of if I really think my W is worth fighting for.
On the positive side though, I have been thinking how I am enjoying decorating my house the way I want to without asking anyone else. I've never had my own place, left home to join the military and lived in barracks. Then met W and moved across the Atlantic and moved into her flat that she had already decorated the way she had it. Bought a house that we didn't get round to doing as much as we would have liked due to various job losses and such. Made another move across the Atlantic, into a tempory apartment that we couldn't do anything with. Then we built a house, our own design with things we both wanted. Broke me mentally, physically and emotionally during the process so wasn't there for my W as she needed and vice versa.
Now she has a small rented apartment again, I have our house that I can do whatever I want with for the time being. It has been enjoyable, picking pictures, light fixtures etc that I find pleasing. Completely new experience but very refreshing.
