Just dropping by to share my support bigy.
I don't have much advice for your current sitch, but I can imagine the mix of emotions.

Are you working with a DB coach? That is what I would do.

Keep on keeping on brother.

Me 46 Former W 46
D19 D7
BD Feb 2016
WAW moves out 4/16/16
D final 6/1/2017

It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine