Thank you, C-nut. The feedback is much appreciated actually. I have read your posts and I think you give great advice. Granted you do not always take your own advise, I still think you make many valid points. Haha.

I would agree that I could use a lot more love and support from H. He has never been much to initiate and that is also hard for me. He tends to be more of an observer and less to reach out or make plans. I know that is his nature, but it still hurts sometimes.

I guess I am just trying to be okay with it all. It would not feel natural for me to reach out to him right now. The M has proven to be long and there are many years ahead. Don't think I can force it at this point.

-Blu

“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela