WHs do come back--Piecing--

[Coconut]

Blu, I feel extreme empathy for the pain you are feeling... I neither have to deal with the longevity of the A, nor the seriousness of their R that you suffer from. I'm not saying that any A is not painful, but I imagine that it is much more difficult to deal with when your S moves away from you and lives with the OP... Add on top of that the fact that you live in a small town, and have to see and hear from OP on a somewhat regular basis, and I pray God gives you the strength that you need to move onwards and upwards.

With that said, it seems to me like what you need is your husbands support and love, distancing yourself from him seems counter productive to me. You've decided to save your M, and that means having a S by your side that is there to support you when you need it, and vice versa. At some point you need to give yourself to your H, and him to you. You've done a year of hard work, instead of taking a break from that and detaching, why not take a break from the work and lean on your spouse? Let him in, let him carry you when you need it, it's either going to work or not, but it seems like to me, that you don't want to spend your life working on it and never reaping the benefits of that work.

I may be speaking out of turn, for you have much more experiencing with piecing than I do, but I would just love to see you happy, even if that happiness comes from a place that makes you vulnerable to more pain.