Jksd, I think you're right. He's still neck deep in the fog and covered in shame. Defensiveness is basically his baseline right now, otherwise he would have to admit full culpability and also acknowledge what a selfish, horrible person would do such a thing to his pregnant wife. I don't see any sort of insight any time soon so I will continue working on my detachment.
Thank SH, I admit I slip up quite often. WH and I got into an argument on Friday night where he screamed at me until the conversation stopped. I ended up digging him and confronting when he said my inability to provide enough physical affection FORCED him to look outside the marriage. Which we know is complete BS but if it helps him sleep better, whatever.
It's been a crazy few days. WH went back to his work state and I am juggling a thousand balls while single-handedly moving my home, car and my children. The movers came yesterday (after 5:30 pm, who does that???) and the car shipper came today. We will all be staying at a colleagues house until Saturday and then fly down to my new place. Then it will be complete chaos while I unpack, get the kids sorted and internet/cable hooked up. Of course thoughts of WH and his possibly cheating again keep intruding on my thoughts but frankly there is nothing I can do about. that. I just gotta work on me.
M 10yrs T 13yrs BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce April '17-Letting go 2018 D busted DD8, DS6, DS3