Thank you for the forceful words Zuess, I needed to hear them. I will stop the activity immediately. Your words make so much sense to be, My head is in the clouds also obviously. That is why I asked. I understand the logic for waiting a year. I read this last night and really thought about it a lot while falling asleep and when I woke up. I think the biggest single point you made is that yes I am still married man. Yes it is adultery. All of your points resonated with me and I have thought of them all really as I pondered the thought of dating. I am not ready for a divorce, it pains me to think that my W is but just isn't saying it...somebody has to I guess. My son is worried about it, I really feel for him.
M 21 years XW 43yo, me 41 yo S13 BD March 2016 - she asked me to patient... End of June - I started the D process. D final 2/23/17 "He who forgets will be destined to remember" Eddie Vedder