Well, just did a Facetime. Little man has little interest, as he's watching something on Nick Jr before bed and says hi Daddy! Got a shower Daddy! Night night! Yeah, tv ain't great for him, but we're excited his attention span has blown up recently so we let him watch a bit.

She was again about to cry. Teachers at her camp are getting sick, quitting and twisting ankles or something. So, she has to scramble to find bodies to watch the kids. I fought VERY hard not to go to my H place and tell her she's doing a great job, working hard, proud of you, etc. I just validated and said this sounds really difficult, then she held in the tears and told S to tell me goodnight. Always hides the tears from me. I'm no dummy. She doesn't want to admit she needs my support. Woman is so stubborn.

Question: What is a temp check? As much as I want to see my son nightly, I'm beginning to think the Facetiming might be a temp check but I'm not completely sure. When I have S, she uses it to say goodnight to him and not much more. When she has him, she talks to me and usually wants reassurance about something with goodnight to S as a little of a throw in.

I can see she's coming out of the fog a bit, but still won't dare be vulnerable near me. It's hard, even when we're on a video chat in 2 different houses about 15 minutes apart, to not see my wife there crying and begging for reassurance but to see a woman who broke up this family and had an A.

I might take my S to Monkey Joe's this weekend, it's a place full of inflatables he can bounce, slide and jump on! He's been before, and he just goes bananas cool


Me: 35 W: 32
S: 4
T: 6 M: 4
Physical Separation official: 5/21
Currently: DR/DBing, Focusing on me and son

Cheating on a good person is like throwing away a diamond and picking up a rock.