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[RDS]

I know I have a flaw in my logic as far as the GAL.

My problem is, I was GAL before my wife left me. I gained a lot of weight over the years and I put my mind to losing weight. I lost 80 pounds in about 7 months and 18 months later I've still kept it off. My W did buy me smaller clothes but she would comment that I was getting too skinny. I'm 6' and weigh 195 so I wouldn't be considered skinny. I did do that for myself and I hoped she would appreciate it but I never got the vibe she liked me better with the weight loss.

I used to be a joe 6-pack kind of guy and I drastically cut down on my beer intake. My W never complained about my beer drinking. In fact she used to buy me the beer. I cut out the beer for me, but if she noticed she never said anything. Every once in awhile she would comment, "Oh, you're not having a beer?" That would annoy me because by then it had been about 3 months since I drank one and I got the impression she didn't remember I had stopped drinking or she didn't think I would still to it.

I also started to exercise. When I started I barely walked a mile but I got up to running 5 miles a day. I haven't ran in a few days because my motivation just isn't there. Again, she didn't say anything about it. Now that I look back on it I think she had already checked out of the marriage and didn't care what I did.

I have done a few more things that would be considered GAL, and I did those for me, but I would have liked to have seen some kind of positive light from my her, but I never did see any appreciation.

Now, through my IC, I am working to improve my outlook on life by eliminating my resentment and calming my anger. I can feel it working, and it is a more refreshing feeling. I've also joinged a couple of social groups to get me out of the house, so that is a big step for me. I just hoped that I would have gotten some kind of feedback from her.

That's why I really hope to get the telephone coaching if my finances work out okay. I would like to hear from someone here on the board and give me a blow-by-blow of how it went.