What should I be Doing (piecing 6)

[Coconut]

So, I didn't even think to post this earlier, but I think it's note worthy.

Father's Day was a little rough , my Son (my step son) was at his biological fathers for the day, it was the first time that's happened in 8 years, he's always been with me at least at night. Also, my W has always bought me a Father's Day card, but not this year (I will say I don't care about cards, but timing says a lot. She did post some nice things on FB though). So anyway, I was ok with that, cause a calendar doesn't dictate what day I celebrate my son and my R, so I planned on spending the day with W. Not gonna go into whole schedule, but between her studying for academy and getting a project for work completed, I was basically by myself on Father's Day, other than a 2 hr dinner with her father. I went for a bike ride and did some other little things, but most of the day I felt like I was waiting for her to finish.

I was watching the NBA finals, and with about 10 mins left (what a great game), I fell asleep during a commercial. So wife wakes me up when she was going to bed, so I got up and when to bed. She's had a little bit of back pain going on for two days, so she laid on her back in bed, which means no snuggling, so I just laid next to her thinking:
- Mother's Day (4 days after A found out) I ignored her and did my own thing
- I didn't take son to get her a card or gift for mothers day
-Father's Day she didn't demand his biological father bring him home at night
- she didn't get me a card
- she spent all day on work or school
Etc.

So I got up out of bed, she asked where I was going and I said I wanna see who won game 7.. She asked if everything ok, and I (probably wrongly) said I'm just a little frustrated cause I spent Father's Day basically alone, you where doing your thing and son wasn't here. I went to go watch game, then with 2 minutes left in game she came out and said I really want you to come to bed (still didn't get to finish game, grrrr), so I went and we snuggled this time.

I think she kinda new what she was doing leaving me alone on Father's Day, but she sincerely seemed to be upset that I was upset about it, and I do not think she intentionally tried to hurt me.

Anyway, counseling rescheduled for tomorrow, overall everything going well. No R talks in like a week other than short one on Saturday I think, I haven't really snooped in over a week (but I'm gonna ask her to show me group me acct in next few days), but if somethings going on id be shocked, because she is acting absolutely in love.

My biggest concerns at this point are that she may not have to worked hard enough to get me back, I don't know if she fully recognizes the severity of the A, and I think she still sees my actions (detached from family) as being as bad as the A... But I do think she feels a lot of guilt about having the A.