Had a good weekend with my family (out of town). My friend was there and we whooped it up on Friday night, it felt good to just be me for a bit. I am detaching by the minute. My STBXW decided she was spending this week out at her mothers, who is on vacation. She also decided that she was keeping S13 with her also. She failed to tell me that and my S13 told me yesterday they where doing that. He felt bad because they where leaving me alone all week and felt obligated to tell me that was the plan. I just saw her and told her not to put him in that position, she needs to communicate that to me before she makes plans like that. For one I was taken off guard (even though I tried not to show it) when S13 told me, he probably sensed that. This is going to be a long year. I haven't told her that I spoke with a L yet, she puts up walls and avoids any real conversation. I told her we should have lunch on Wednesday. S13 asked me yesterday if we where to get a D who would get the house. He said he asked the same question to the STBXW. I feel so bad for him, he is starting to figure it out. I think she is too. I have to go get my $$ that I took from my retirement to pay for the L today, open an account in my name. I will tell her on Wednesday about that Zuess, using your words or a rendition of them. My hope of this turning around is almost gone as my weakness turn to strengths. Life [censored] sometimes, however through Him I have faith that it will be better some day. Thanks again all.
M 21 years XW 43yo, me 41 yo S13 BD March 2016 - she asked me to patient... End of June - I started the D process. D final 2/23/17 "He who forgets will be destined to remember" Eddie Vedder
