My third post - please be nice

[collin]

Yesterday was a good day, I stayed busy and kept my mind occupied. It was the first day I haven't seen her since Monday. I got stuff done around here. But, then I woke up and it was fathers day. Now reality is crashing in. My D is with the grandparents at their yearly beach trip. It was during this week, while they were gone, 5 years ago I asked W to marry me. I can't wait for D to get home, I miss her. W is supposed to be coming over later on this afternoon and this evening we're all going out for fathers day. I am looking forward to her coming over and seeing her.

W sent me a really sweet text thanking me for stepping in to be a father to D since her bio dad wasn't man enough to be. I tried not to turn that text into a convo about our situation, so I just thanked her and told her I was looking forward to seeing her.

What I meant by us spending a lot of time together was, for example:

one of the foster dogs she has at her place pee's in the crate (A LOT!) so she had to wash all of the blankets. She wanted me to stay at her place with her until they were finished. It was late at night and personally I don't want her walking back and forth to the laundry room by herself at her place. It's not a bad place, it's just that I can't ensure her safety if she's there and I'm here. So, we walked over and she put the blankets in the wash and then we went back to her place. We laid in the bed and watched tv. She wanted me to hold her, so obviously, I did. Nothing sexual happened, just us laying in the bed watching TV. It felt nice. Finally about 2 am the stuff got done and I came back here to go to sleep.

So, I don't know if that's me being a nice guy or what it is. We did talk on the phone for a few minutes last night. Not about anything in particular, just talking. When we got off it was all I could do to not say "I love you". I don't know if I should go down that path now or what. Or, maybe I should just wait for her to.