When I say I feel at peace I mean that I can see now that my M is over. I didn't want to believe it before so was obsessing about every little detail, what she said, how she acted when I picked the kids up, I was replaying every minutes of the weeks/months leading up to BD.
I was blindly clinging on to anything which gave me false hope, I was trying to change the context of every word she said to fit my desire.
Where did it get me? I would probably say I was weeks away from a complete mental breakdown!
On I side not I can see the humor in her filing for D, here in the UK she could only file under adultery or unreasonable behavior. What's she going to say?
"He let me go out with my friends all the time" "He did most of the housework" "He was great with the kids" "He let me irresponsibly spend money"
