Are you getting out and meeting new people? I'm not up to date on your sitch, so I may be missing it. Your recent posts show you are doing a lot of good stuff, but I just don't see many mentions of social activity and new people.
All you can do right now is take care of yourself, and a big part of that is relearning how to make new social connections. Speaking for myself, that skill got pretty darn rusty after 25 years of underuse. We need all the support we can get during this process, and, frankly, we need to try to fill some of the absence left in our lives by our missing spouses. We need to build ourselves a new support system outside or marriages. It's difficult, and remains a work in progress for me, but it's good and I need to put in more efforts there myself.
Work on you (and I know you are with all that good stuff you mentioned!!) and stop trying to mind read or predict how he will/will not feel safe to communicate or anything else.
As BluWave has pointed told us repeatedly, mind reading simply does not work. The truth is that your H will only do something when and if he is good and ready to do so, meaning that he has made his own decisions without feeling any outside influence from you.
All the best to you, and I am so sorry that your H is too foolish to see what he's doing. Meanwhile, put on your own oxygen mask first and focus on taking care of yourself.
(((LandC)))
H: 44, Me: 45 Married: 20 y Together: 25 y no kids Walk away: 12/15 Asked for temp separation 12/25/15 PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had) H filed for D 5/16
