One of These Days

[mleigh4]

You have been through so much Cali, and are still dealing with it. It is understandable and downright common sense that you would not be quite ready to give yourself fully yet. Hopefully your date can understand that too. From a girl here, just stay honest with her.

I may be wrong, but I get the sense you have not excepted that your old W is gone....Or maybe you just haven't completely let go? Even if she was to wake up, at this point, she would no longer be the same person, just like we are no longer the same person. It is very difficult to accept the person we fell in love with and created life with is gone. It may also just be the trigger of the anniversary date and her trying to pull you back in doesn't help either.....

You have talked about finding that peace within so hold onto that and keep living, keep moving on. Keep your faith that everything will be ok because we have no idea what lies ahead for us.