Granted I know I have done all I can to this point ... its still sad that 26 years ended this way. I realized I am still in love with who she used to be, definitely not who she is at the moment .. but that girl I married and spent all that time with I dearly miss.
I would worry more if you DIDN'T feel this way..
Your old life served you very well, and things weren't always this way. There were good times, and things weren't always this confused and aggravating.
I realized this same thing a few years ago.
That I still loved the girl that I married...not the one that she had become..
I still honored her, by letting the expectation that she is the same girl that she once was....go
And I still cherish the memories that we made...
Love, Honor, and Cherish....
Sounds kinda like a vow I once made to her....: )
You're getting there..
Originally Posted By: CaliGuy
The girl I am seeing ... I enjoy the time, its better than being alone but I am starting to realize I am not ready to give freely yet, not sure if I ever will TBH, in time maybe but just something I have to be honest with myself about. She has recently called me on it, I have been honest with her but things may end just for the fact I am not fully healed just yet .... this wound may in fact be one that never does heal and I will have to just accept that as part of it.
Try not to predict future failures or successes....
Live each day as it is, no expectations either way, and just enjoy the time that you do spend with her, or the time that you don't....
You have been through enough emotional turmoil the past few years, try not to pile that up any deeper than it already is...
