Working on me and letting it play out

[cbtdad]

Thanks for stopping by Sandi!
And thank you Cnut!
Sandi that last sentence you wrote couldn't be more right. It made me laugh. Isn't that why men are from mars and women are from venus. haha
We haven't had in contact like that since a few days before the BD. That was the last time we ML. Since then I have been in guest bedroom. At first we were kind of distant in the house. Now we are still in separate bedrooms, but other than physical contact and being in different bedrooms you would think we are a happily married couple right now. I will say its taken some time to feel that way and I guess its a good thing.
Last time around this block I had a WW, this time I'm pretty sure just a WAW who was tired of my verbal and emotional abuse.
Yes I will admit that now. I didn't realize I was that person until I found a very important book by Patricia Evans.
Now I know. And it has changed me and will change my life. Hopefully with my current W in it. If not then I know I will be a better man regardless.
Last time around I didn't realize who I was and what the real issue was so it surfaced again.
My IC who has helped a lot says that she became numb emotionally and that it's going to take some time to open up
She has said in MC that she sees progress but is skeptical
I'm just trying to work on me and get better everyday
I'm hoping the way things are going that its a good sign, but I still don't know. Only time will tell.
It is getting better, but as someone whos LL is physical touch this is taking a lot of patience