You're right, Esame. No way to know what's going on unless he chooses to tell me, but I learned to accept that a long time ago. I will say this, though. Job is right. If you remain quiet and just listen carefully, you learn a lot.

He did send a text overnight with an apology and apologized to me again on the phone.

I'm just happy that he realized what he was doing WHILE he was doing it (without me saying anything about it), stopped and got control. And, of course, that he followed up with an apology. He's come a long way since the monster days. He still has moments (obviously), but interaction with him has been much more peaceful and pleasant lately.

I just wish he felt safe enough to talk to me about whatever is going on with him, but no way would I push that. Maybe one day he will. Who knows?

Me: 59 and holding
H: :53
Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown
M: 19
T: 23
BD: 9-23-2013