thanks Rose888... I do have a tendency to think everything is all my fault and if I just did it differently everything would be ok. I have been feeling so much pain and regret the past few days anyway - for all I feel I could have done over past year to be more of a team player in our marriage in terms of money earning etc. Yes, I was doing all the cooking/cleaning errands etc. but he did voice his frustration with the fact that I didn't have a full time job and I think that hurt our M. I don't know where to go with all this. I HATE trying to communicate with him via email, and I REFUSE to try to talk about our M and future etc. via email. It's cold, distant, inhuman and cowardly, as far as I am concerned, and allows room for MORE misunderstanding, which I do NOT need right now. I am going to figure out a way to talk to him in person in a safe way - going outside now for some air! THANKS
