Hi BluWave, Thanks again for your support and ideas. I am definitely not ready to sign papers... I want you to know I have had many days in past couple weeks when I was REALLY angry, walking in the desert yelling and screaming at the sky etc. I've been doing internal family systems work on parts with my therapist - and getting very familiar with my 'angry part'!!! I do think you make a very good point - and it's one of the reasons I will not just 'sign' the papers to make his life easier right now. There is no way I would do something so serious without seeing him in person. I deserve better, as you say, and I deserve the respect of meeting face to face, even if that takes him more time to be able to do. One thing I've been angry about is that, while we both behaved very badly the night of the fight, he has continued to be very disrespectful and inconsiderate of me and my feelings. I know he is in a lot of pain most likely as well. oh dear - going outside and taking a break from all this. On a positive note, I have joined a program to become a Certified Dream Coach with Dream University. this is very exciting! thanks and more later!
