The roller coaster continues.

Bad day of anxiety today, one of the worst for a good while. Not helped by my mum being in hospital now.

I just feel so overwhelmed today. And like I'm going to throw up with the worry of everything.

I've struggled to achieve much. But I've done some washing, the washing up, and taken time over my makeup. I'm going out to work soon.

Try as I may, I still don't understand why all this is happening.

I guess there's no understanding of any of it. It is what it is, and nothing more. And if you look at it like that, then it's pretty simple and straight forward.


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017