No I agree, I felt (despite her am saying otherwise) that she had checked out before that. I even raised it with her, I think this is why I'm really in a feeling of not being bothered if she were to try and come back. I have felt like I have been living a lie for too long and it's always been my fault for our problems. She has never looked at herself within our relationship and I don't have the feeling she ever will.
There was no remorse and there was no interest in doing something for me, I was burnt from building our house, friends told her so and suggested she took me away for a weekend even offering to take our kids so we could go away just together but I don't think I was worth it to her by then...
