Thank you. And yes, I do the same exact thing you do! Ex was a dark and brooding guy. Long story, but he would come over my house with someone else in high school when I had a "get together" when I knew of him, but didn't know him personally. he would sit in the corner and not talk to anyone, like he was too good for us. I ignored him. I always thought there was a wound so deep I could fix! Didn't get me very far either. I thought I could help heal exNG's wounds too, which are very apparent. I NEED to get that book, I never read it, thanks for the suggestion.
My dear friends, Cadet, and RosaLinda, thank you. My IC is a lifesaver, almost like the mom I never had. I am not the perfect woman, but my imperfections are still lovable and I need to remember that. I have spent too long trying to get others to love me. I shouldn't have to try.
You made me think about the monogamy thing. I do believe in it. I think what has shaken me, is I see infidelity coming from places I would never think to find it. I guess it's more of a matter of who can I trust?
It will always be a crap shoot I guess. But I can't let it scare me away.
