I am so sorry to read that things haven't been going well for you. I know that the outpatient program isn't what you had hoped for, but it's a start and now you have some idea as to what you are dealing with. Hopefully, in time, you will feel better

It's best not to respond to your h's texts because all he's doing is blaming you and the entire world for his problems. I would slowly cease doing things for him like picking up his meds and running errands for him. He's a big boy and can do those things for himself. After all, most places are open until 8-9 PM each and every night. If he needs to grow up, accept his faults and work on himself and as long as you continue to do things for him, he's not going to do that. I know, you've done this for him the entire marriage, but right now, that old marriage is a dead one.

It's time to put yourself first and get well. Your h needs to face the consequences of his actions and you can't help him...he has to do it himself.

Tab, it's time to take care of YOU! Please take care of yourself.


Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.