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Some posters believe that lbs needs two or even three bomb drops before they really accept the reality of their situation. Once that acceptance is achieved the road is cleared for truly moving forward. I believe thatyour path is now clear and I look forward to hearing you formulate how you rebuild a great future for you. I am a bit excited for you and hope you can get excited about what lays ahead for you too.

As for me I'm plodding on. Am getting out of the house mire and mire. Am getting fitter and fitter, though still hampered by being tired. I an reading a book on connected parenting. I have started doing some of the recommendations,though only a third into the book. W has seen that I ordered book, as we have joint Amazon account. Neither of us mentioned it. I had thought about talking about it, but in the end didn't.Mainly because this book is part of MY path and not a ploy to show her I am working to improve. I am reflecting on this to be sure of my reasons and not to fall into bad communications for bad reasons.

I have had many more good conversations with W and she has been more open on a lot of stuff than of late. Whereas this is good, it is nothing personal.I haveoften been in awe of how she is communicating and wondering what that is about. Sometimes I am thinking this is great and get lost in that thought and enjoying the moment that I don't listen fully. I am working on that. But this type of communication is not constant.I appreciate it, validate when I can, listen as much as possible but don't let it fill me with hope or other emotions that cause me to alter my path.

When I gal, my W usually profits to do ironing, tidying, planning stuff foe kids/family. I get out of the house mostly for me as this life is not as full as I want. Part of it is to give her (& me) space and to show both of us I am not chained down by this situation. Sometimes I will stay out after a short gal just to read a chapter of a book. But mostly I am doing something with people.

I have two races coming up and some social events, including drinks after work tonight.

I am relooking into gratitude and appreciation. Also happiness. My.happiness seems to have slipped in recent weeks so I will go back to what I was doing. I think my focus came back to M and not enough on the good stuff!

Got to go. Thanks for reading