Almost 10 weeks since she said she didnt love me

[Natus]

I miss the smiley face girl too. Oh she just dropped into office this morning and added another smiley face. You'd like her. Shes petite but shapely, very cute, short shoulder length hair, asian. A tad youngish though, mid to late twenties.

Anyho back to my reality aka sich. Things look a little positive if not awkward. She pulled me in for a little peck on the lips this morning before work (W not smiley face girl) but i couldnt help but hunger for more. So i made it a little awkward. I really need to work on my neediness.

I think i better schedule MC asap cause i have no idea what im doing now. I've been fighting to get to this point, now that im here (the first stages to maybe piecing maybe) im like "sh*t i never actually thought what id do once im here".