What Should I be doing (5)

[Coconut]

Hi storm, I also keep up on your and Lims threads, it helps to see other peoples struggles and realize I'm not alone.. I think my thread definitely emphasizes the roller coaster ride, both because everything has happened so fast, but also because I suck at keeping even keel and have wild swings..

Those triggers suck, I luckily haven't had any personal knowledge of A except for 2 days texting that I saw, and also because the A only lasted a few weeks before I found out, confronted her and she ended it. My biggest fear is that she got off too easy and will start again, but for right now I believe she's committed to us. I just wish I could see the future and know if she would, because that would be it for me and frankly, I'd rather start fresh now rather than later if that's the case... Urge, I do want to be with her, but I also don't want to live a life analyzing her every move.