Btw, your H has given you a big clue. He likes how you were when you were younger. He needs words of affirmation and respect from you. Have you read the 5 love languages, Love and Respect, and After the Affair?
They will help in your sitch.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.