Detachment, anxiety and the end of limbo 2

[Phoebe]

Thanks, Jzmill. I'm sorry that you also suffer from the human watering can syndrome. I wish that it was a disease with known incubation, acute phase, and recovery times. Wouldn't it be nice to know that by, say 41 weeks, or whatever, we could expect to be feeling _________?

I know that there is no schedule, but I'd love to begin the convalescent phase.

And preferably I'd like some future immunity. LOL.

I let myself feel the emotions whenever I can, and it helps them to pass more quickly. Still reaching out in whatever ways I can, hence the biking and therapist texts.

So I had a bit of a distraction here on the farm. I was out doing a bit of yard work and I realized that I was hearing a young bird (a grackle nestlig), so I set up a ladder and put it back in its nest. Then I realized it was absolutely crawling with bird mites. And so was I! I was putting the ladder away when I hear a soft thump. Baby has just thrown itself out of the nest. Again! Now I know the mites are a problem for this nest, and parents can even abandon a badly infested nest. This nestling may be messed up for good by its two drops to the ground, but its two siblings still looked good, so i felt like I had to intervene in some way.

I gently sprinkled diatomaceous earth all around the nest and the beams it was sitting on, then put a tiny puff toward the babies, and then I ran AWAY!! And I took a hot shower. Nothing to make your skin crawl like seeing lots and lots of tiny living specks moving around on it. Yuck. Imagine how it is for the poor babies? Fingers crossed of these little ones.