Working on me and letting it play out

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Jeez, I just read Cadet's thread saying most folks only begin to reconcile after about 9 months. Gulp!

WW has said no to any kind of counseling, but has admitted that if we tried we'd have to do it. Her saying no just said to me she's scared and wants to take what she thinks is the easy way out. We had agreed to revisit in July, but she hasn't mentioned anything in a while and as I'm starting to get excited about my changes I don't see any reason to rush any discussions.

I know I'll be up and down, but I feel like the stock market. Trending upwards. I'm in such a better place today than I have been in a long time. I'm allowed to be me without being scared of saying/doing the wrong thing. I'm not worrying about what she's doing or thinking.

You sound like you're in a pretty good place, just hoping W works on her end. I'm thinking that trying to look down the road will only stress you out, just try to focus on and enjoy today as much as you can. You'll know when W doesn't want to give it a real chance I think. You're doing really well.