Working on me and letting it play out

[cbtdad]

Thanks Cnut!
Shockingly its not as difficult as it once was. I don't expect anything now. For the first few weeks I would expect some sort of sexual tension or something, but now I have zero expectations.
I can say I find myself tugging back and forth at wanting things to work out. Even though we are getting along great I do wonder if we are only delaying the inevitable anyways. We both come from such troubled backgrounds and its so much to overcome. I am doing all the work on me and fixing my part. At some point she will need to go see IC and work on her for us to have a good marriage. And that's what I want. A good marriage. A marriage where both partners are equal and compromise. A marriage were I feel loved when I get home. A partner who wants to give me a hug and a kiss when she sees me.
So much is going to have to happen in the long run for this to work.
So for now, I continue to work on me everyday.
One thing I do realize now is that I do believe I can stay in the house for a long time regardless of the outcome