My little slice of Life..

[liono]

It is killing me to not know where our marriage is heading.. Our next mc session is Monday.

I feel you on that one. That uncertainty is something that's so easy to churn and spin on. My W also had the same pattern, of avoiding me. Not like she literally walked out of the room, but it *almost* seemed that way. Only logistics about the kids. This was until our first MC session, which she got a lot of stuff off her chest (mainly "I just don't think our personalities are compatible and we never should have gotten married blah blah"). Her explanation was she was afraid I would blow up or scream or something (I am NOT like that. All in her head) when she explained what she was thinking.

Anyway, my point is, just as your head is spinning, your W has A LOT going on in her head too.

To me, it also sounds like some of this stuff is trying to get a rise out of you. Excluding from vacation, "You're coming home too early" wtf?!?! Just stay the course.

Other piece of advice I have around detaching. Consider this:
* If your MR ends up healing and your W changes her feelings toward you, then the best way you can help that is to work on you and be the best person you could possible be.
* If D is the path, and you are going to be left alone, then the best way you can help prepare for that is to work on you and be the best person you could possible be.

I know that second one sounds pretty crummy, but you see the pattern, right?