Oh yes, eat my dust, you pathetic lying cheat.

So, my H and I work in the same industry. The past couple of days I've been working with H's uncle, who also does the same job as my H.

H and his uncle are *very* similar, in many, many ways - except his uncle is about 20 years older, and quite a bit wiser. I'm also starting to suspect his uncle went through something similar to what my H has been going through when he was the same age.

Anyway, I was ready for the job. Turned up, immaculately turned out, perfectly poised, gracious, dignified. Actually, I was more than that...I managed to exude genuine openness, curiosity and warmth to everyone there (including H's uncle).

He gave me q big hug when he saw me. Was genuinely happy to see me. We chatted a couple of times. He told me I looked well, then corrected himself and said *really* well.

He asked what I'd been up to. I gave him a quick run down, including my holiday. He assumed I had been to visit my parents, who live abroad. I corrected him and said I'd been to another country entirely. He sounded surprised (in a good way).

I didn't ask about H, and uncle didn't mention him. Conversation was smooth and easy, no awkward silences. He gave me two very warm and genuine hugs, one when we met, and one at leaving.

Very, very proud of myself. Not only of how I controlled my emotions and of how I conducted myself, but especially of how I managed to stay in the moment at all times, of how I managed to stay in touch with my own self and be open to other's warmth at the same time.

Bought myself a pair of ridiculously high-heeled shoes that I've had my eye on for a while as a reward.

Not f*** me shoes, but f*** you shoes wink


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017